Starting Over.

There will be full transparency in this post. I will also speak about my weight loss & health journey so leave now if you don't wanna read about that.

I don’t feel good. Back in 2020, my health was on the line and I made the changes needed to get better. I got better. For the next couple of years, things were fine. My weight ebbed & flowed as it does in life. Last year I noticed I was gaining my weight back faster than I was used to. I never hid the fact that I was a stress eater and that I had anxiety. What I didn't notice were my cortisol levels creeping back up and my PCOS getting worse again. Then my mom died and my health took a backseat.

After months of very poor choices, I find myself back to where I was in 2020 and this time struggling to find the motivation to get back to a suitable diet and exercise routine. My mind wasn't allowing me to. I'm writing this for anyone who's been in these shoes. This is hard. I can't pretend I'm happy with gaining almost all the weight back. What I can say is — I don't feel good. I recognize that & now I'm making changes to get back to feeling good.

Because I have so much to work with (many different illnesses) to say to me I'm fine and that I don't need these changes would be a lie. I'm not gonna lie to myself and I'm not going to let anyone tell me falsehoods. Everyone is different and no one knows my body but me. I'll never understand anyone having an opinion on someone's body like that. But that's beside the point.

The point of this post is I'm officially holding myself accountable. I decided that I didn't want to feel like this anymore. That making these changes now while I'm still young enough to do it with some ease is what's best FOR ME. So be ready to see me working out again. Be ready to see me cooking a lot more. Be ready to see me look different. I feel like I'm hyping myself up too lol.

After almost 6 months I use my sadness and grief and refocus it on getting back to what healthy means for me. I hope you stay for the journey but understand if you won't.

I'll update monthly (hopefully!).

Start Weight: 191lbs

Let’s Go.