I had a really good conversation at dinner yesterday that got me thinking about what it really means to slowly form destructive patterns, how to recognize them, and more importantly how to stop them before they get out of control. I got to thinking about this month. It'll be a month now since my world changed.

✨ | There was no sugar coating. I will have moments. I will get manic. I will behave recklessly. I will drink too much one day. I will eat too much one day. I'll snap at the wrong person. Come home too late. I will because I'm human and while my support system is very strong — I also listen to voices in my head more often than I admit to. But I've learned with the help of that support system that I find the courage to do what's right for myself and my mental health. Calling people who will tell me NO. People who will take the bottles out of my hand. People who will ensure I stay as grounded as possible. People who will check for me in ways that are more than “how are you?”. I got that exact thing yesterday. Didn't even realize I needed to be checked and yet this person knew what to say to me to get my mind straight. I'm forever blessed with amazing people in my life. What a great conversation to have over fish & chips…there was Japanese Whiskey in there too.

The point of this caption is to keep myself accountable really. I am aware of the mistakes that are coming but that I also have the tools to lighten the blow when they do. That I have the tools to keep most of it from happening in the first place.

Thank you for that conversation. You know who you are.

Let's do the work.

Love You.
Ally xox

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